time

For some reason, celebrating a New Year doesn’t always make me feel very happy. For me, it is just another reminder that another page on the calendar is moving onward without the presence of my son here in the physical world. As much as the pain of his passing has softened over the years, it still hurts, very much. Today actually marks 7 1/2 years since he left. Where in the world did the time go? On one hand it feels like it just happened yesterday, and on the other hand it feels like forever ago. Time is a strange thing. From what I gather from Spirit, time does not exist on the other side and it only exists here in the physical realm. That makes sense to me because in truth, the only thing that really exists is the present moment. If we can choose to live our lives in the here and now, it can eliminate so much of the angst we feel while we are still here. There is an old saying by Lao Tzu, “If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.” Perhaps I should not focus on the day, month or year on the calendar. By trying to just be in the present moment, it doesn’t really matter how much time has passed since my son left here. As long as I continue to feel his presence with me in my daily, present moments, he continues to be with me. So on this new day in this new month in this new year, remember you too can feel the presence of your loved one you are missing by taking “time” to truly connect to them in your heart, in the present moment.