bittersweet

Bittersweet means containing a mixture of sadness and happiness. I think it’s safe to say that Christmas morning for anyone who is grieving for a loved one, especially a child in Spirit, can relate to feelings of mixed emotions on this day. Last night on Christmas Eve, I got to witness something purely magical as a dear old friend of ours played the part of Santa to some of the younger members of our family. Watching the pure love and joy in the eyes of the children as they FaceTimed Santa actually brought tears of happiness to my eyes. It reminded me that Christmas is a magical time of year and the joy comes from the love we get to share with one another. It’s not about the gifts or presents or money spent on things we don’t really need. Of course I am reminded of the sadness I feel in not having my boy here with me to celebrate the holidays. I would do anything to go back in time to when my children were both little and they were experiencing the magic of Christmas morning with me again. But then my son Jake reminded me this morning as I wrote with him in my journaling, that where he is now, he gets to feel that love and magical joy every single moment he is in heaven. What a beautiful thought! Can you imagine getting to experience the magic of Christmas morning all the time when you are in Spirit! This gives me comfort and this gives me hope. This makes me feel happiness, besides the sadness of missing him physically. I KNOW in my heart he is experiencing the joy where he is now that we can’t possibly understand while we are here. So on this Christmas morning, it’s OK to feel bittersweet feelings because that is part of being human. Try to remember the Christmas mornings of the past with more love than pain and know your special someone in Spirit is loving you even a bit more than usual today, sharing their love with you always.