angelversary

The days leading up to the anniversary of our loved one’s passing can be filled with trepidation and anxiety. Every year as July approaches, I can feel the emotions inside me bubbling up. At times I fear the loop in my head of what transpired on the day I found out my son passed will just keep going like a torture chamber in my mind. But, over the past seven years, I must admit I have found each year to be gentler and gentler than the year before. I have learned that actually the days leading up to my Jake’s angelversary are worse than the actual day itself. What comforts me the most is knowing he is still being remembered. I cherish all the texts and messages I get on this day from his friends and family because I don’t ever want him to be forgotten. I have also learned over the years that it helps to do something on his day that he enjoyed while he was here, in honor of him. I miss my son so much, but he always seems to come through with amazing ways to send me comfort and to let me know he is still wrapping me in his love. For that I am eternally grateful. If you have a special day coming up around your loved one, know you are not alone. These days on our grief journey are especially difficult, so allow yourself the grace to feel all you need to feel. But also know there is hope for brighter days ahead and your loved one is right by your side. Jacob, I love you eternally and thank you for the amazing way you helped me get through your angelversary today.