physical missing

I am actually closer to my son now than when he was in a physical body. I know that doesn’t really seem possible. Trust me, I would give absolutely anything to be able to hug him and kiss him and feel him and laugh with him and all the other wonderful physical sensations that I miss so incredibly much.  But I now know him on a soul level.  My soul knows his soul. I am aware of him in all the mystical and magical signs he sends me. I would not be aware of our true deep spiritual soul connection if he hadn’t left his physical body and cracked my heart wide open.  In the shattering of the old me, I am now a new version of me, the one who has a soul level awareness of exactly who I really am. And in that knowing I am also undeniably aware of the existence of my son on a soul mate level as well. Yes, as long as I am still in the physical, I will always miss him in the physical as well, but I would not, could not possibly know my son on this deep intimate soul level if he was still physically Jacob. I am in absolute awe of his great shining love I now see with my new spiritual eyes. I know this to be true in my heart and deep within my soul. It is with newfound inner awareness that I know my relationship with him continues.